Hey everyone!

So sorry I've not posted in such a long time. Last time I posted I spoke about how my consultation went with Mr Chappatte. Since then I had my injection of what I though was zoladex but was in fact prostap. It may not seem like a big deal to anyone else but I had prepared myself for zoladex and when no one told me until I walked in for my injection it kind of annoyed me. I know they're pretty much the same but they're also very different and the nurse made me laugh by trying to convince me otherwise. Anyhow, I had it and everyone I spoke to was right in that it doesn't hurt as much as having blood done. I've had botox for hyperhydrosis and that was waaaayyyy more painful than the prostap. It stung with the initial injection and then it was fine until she injected it which stung again but nothing unbearable.

The symptoms I had instantly was dizziness, as if I'd had a bit too much to drink ;) Apart from that there was nothing apart from irritation, a rash, soreness and swelling around the area where I was injected, about the size of an egg. The following 2 days I was in pain all day non stop. If you don't want TMI then I suggest don't read the next part but this is an honest view of my experiences so I'm not leaving anything out. The following 4 days I had an excessive amount of discharge and I had a yucky mucus on the following Friday. I said not to read it if you don't want want TMI :)

Since then I've argued with my specialist about how exactly this is supposed to be helping me. I personally do not see any improvement. In fact last night I barely slept at all, waking up and being in pain then struggling to sleep again, over and over again. He seems to think that my side effects will get better over time but I feel like I've heard that story a million times. "The pill will stop your periods if you take it back to back" Did it? NO! "The implant will stop your periods after 3 months" Did it? NO! "The implant actually takes 6 months so come back then" Did it work then? NO! After 1 1//2 years "Oh, it didn't work as it was placed incorrectly" I'm sick of the same story over and over and me being right every time.

The patches I had to help with bleeding and painful periods worked perfectly. No, they didn't stop my periods but the pain and heaviness was almost halfed if not quartered. As many of you know on zoladex or prostap, you can't use hormonal contraception so even if I wanted to use the patches just to help my periods, they wouldn't work.

I finally have a date for my lap with Mr Chappatte. I will be going down on the 21st July for my lap. Depending on what time it will be booked for, I will travel down the day before if its early or the same day if its later. He said I'll stay in at least over night if not a few days to heal before I make the long trip back home. I'm almost looking forward to having some help but I'm nervous about what he might find and if he can even help me.

If I'm completely honest, that is all I've been doing since the prostap is being in pain and trying to arrange my lap date and time. I have been doing college still and did my Science exams the last two weeks and next week I have English, the following week is Maths. I know my English and Maths will be ok but my Science on the other hand has been terrible because I've had to miss so many lessons because of this stupid condition. I'm thinking of trying to get DLA or PIP, whatever it is now, but the process is so lengthy (I've done it twice now, I think, maybe three) I don't know if I can be bothered to do it. You can't do it online anymore, you have to call and ask for a form which is a million pages long. I might do it after my exams when I've got time to do it.

I hope you are all well and contact me or leave a comment if you'd like to share your story or if you'd like to tell me your experiences. Even if you just want to reassure me. Speak soon and I promise I'll try to keep up this time. Good luck to everyone out there dealing with this and going through a hard time.

Leya xoxo