Hey there everyone,

Since my last blog there's not really been much to talk about so haven't felt the need to post.

Last week I had a package that arrived when I wasn't home so I had to go to my local depot to collect it. When I got there I was passed a rectangular package that was very intriguing. I wondered what it could be and the guy who got it for me told me it was from Kent Spire Hospital. Then came the best part, for the last 24 hours I was thinking it was something amazing that I know I hadn't bought so someone else must have gotten me....no, it was my bowel prep. My fiance laughed when he found out what I'd been excited about was just bowel prep for surgery.

I'm starting to get more and more nervous as time goes on as its only two weeks and two days away now. (Yes, I'm that anally retentive about it that I'm even counting the days) I even rung the secretary and asked her a bunch of random questions. I asked whether my mum, dad and fiance can get food in the hospital, whether I'll be on a ward or in a private room and also if I can start using my contraceptive patches again. They're almost irrelevant to my surgery but I'm so nervous that I need to make sure everything is perfect.

My family can visit from 10am - 9pm which is unusual as my local hospital is 5pm - 6pm and 7pm - 8pm. I'm glad that they can be there all day for me though. There's a restaurant in the hospital and I get my own private room, they don't have any wards. I'll get en suite bathroom, a little dining set for me to eat at and apparently it's quite spacious. As for the patches, she said to start taking them again and she'll check whether its ok or not.

I have been almost pain free for a while now but today I woke up in extreme pain in my ribs again so maybe the pain will still be there, just not as often as usual.

I went to a taster day at my college 2 days ago and I have to say the new principal I've got is amazing. (Yes, principal for a college, I found it weird when I first went) She has changed everything around and has made learning easier. We used to work for the whole year and then two weeks before the end of our course we would have study sessions to improve our grades. She's changed it so that we work in blocks of six weeks which will be so much easier for me because if I have time off, I can catch up quicker than waiting a whole year. We work solid for 5 weeks then have a RAD week (Review and Development) where we improve our grades. Also, I am so excited to start this course now as it looks amazing, I want to hurry it up so I can get to uni and do midwifery. I found it hard walking around college all day though so I'm thinking I might have to start taking painkillers more often as time goes on.

I've also been offered to go to the local gym with a friend from college. I'm hoping that with walking around  a lot and going to the gym, I will get fit and not be in so much pain as they say that exercise helps....I'll be the judge of that. So far, every time I try to do some sort of activity it hurts.

So, at the moment, all is good. I'm getting stoked about this next course but just wondering if the pain will hold off so I can be a full time learner, my lap is coming up and hopefully that will help a lot and the place I'm staying seems amazing.

Good luck to anyone who's having a lap soon or has just had one, I wish you all a speedy recovery and a long time pain free.

Thanks for reading,

Leya xoxo

Hey everyone,

Again, I've left it a while so I'm sorry about that. The reason being that I've had a really bad few weeks since my second prostap. I thought that this one would end up working but obviously not. I've had pains in my chest/ribs for the last two weeks, not affecting my breathing but affecting my sleep immensely. I have gone the last two weeks with barely any sleep, going to sleep at 4am and waking up at 8am isn't the best thing to do when you're already so drained, but I just couldn't sleep with the pain. Over the last three days I've also had slight period cramps yet I've not come on....yet. I've got a definite time and date for my laparoscopy now which is 8am on 21st July. I'm staying over one night as I live over 200 miles from where I'm having surgery (about 4hours away)

I'm hoping that I can get some answers from surgery. There's definitely a lot of questions. I want to know exactly what position my womb is in and what shape and size as I've had a lot of different stories about my womb. If he can, I want some pictures so I have visual proof of everything. He's doing a dye test in my fallopian tubes which if any of you don't know, that's where they put a dye in your tubes to test fertility and see if they're blocked or not, if they are then they can flush them out.

I'm hoping that this will help my pain and that its good news that I can conceive naturally and that I don't need to rush into having babies. If I do then I do and I'll work around it. I wouldn't want to go against him saying there's little to no chance or that I can have them but not for long as it would be harder. If that was the case then I'd just try now so I can have them in a few years time (depending on the length of time it takes but its never an overnight thing).

I hope you're all well and as pain free as possible and I will keep you updated until my laparoscopy. I will post after my laparoscopy but not necessarily straight away. Thanks for reading.

Leya xxxxx