So next week is my lap. I have it on Monday and although I am totally relaxed about it, there are still a few nerves there. I seem to want to call up my specialists secretary to ask her random questions that don't even need asking. I packed two weeks ago ready for Monday and I am totally over-prepared.

I had my bloods done today and for the first time it didn't hurt. I think its because I didn't dwell on it, I just went without thinking about it and then I had them done. That's how I've been throughout this whole process. I don't know whether it's all because I don't believe it's not real yet or whether I'm just chilled about it all but I don't feel stressed or nervous about anything as, like I say, I'm fully prepared yet I still feel like I'm nervous and for no reason at all.

I've not been thinking about the whole conceiving aspect of things for a while now. I've been side tracked I think with such a busy month and a lot of things happening. I feel like I need to prepare for my holiday next month, going to my friends birthday party, visiting a few universities, starting my next course, starting the gym, all whilst trying to recover from the surgery so I don't think I've really considered it. I have absolutely no idea what I would do if he said that it would be good to start trying now. I guess I feel like I need to be more prepared for it, like having a job, having my own place, having a constant income. It's just not top of my list yet.

I am thinking of asking for either uterine artery embolization or endometrial ablation as I've been having increased symptoms of the adenomyosis. I have been having so much pain during sex that it takes at least 15-20 minutes for me to stop hurting so I can enjoy it which is getting to me as we should be like every other young couple and be able to do it whenever and wherever we want! I've also been needing the toilet every 2-3 hours and am desperate when I wake up, which isn't normal for me as I usually only need a wee once or twice a day. I don't know whether this was because of the prostap or the adeno but I have also had migraines frequently which is causing problems as I can't concentrate properly. I've also noticed palpitations but never recognised that as a symptom because I though it was normal but apparently as the condition worsens and reaches the later more severe time, it can cause palpitations because of the change in hormones.

Now, I've used Evra contraceptive patches for a while as some of you might know, and it usually helps with my periods a lot. I usually only get a very light bleed for a few days, max of 4 days and I don't get any pain. This week, I have had pain, not as bad as it can be but enough for me to notice. I've also been on since Saturday which is 3 days and it shows no signs of slowing down yet, as I am quite heavy still. I don't know whether that is to do with the prostap messing my hormones up or whether it is the adeno making it harder for the patches to work against it.

I think that's enough rambling for one night and so I wish you all a happy summer and until next time, take care!! :) I will hopefully update you all after my lap but it may not be straight away.

Thanks for reading :)

Leya xoxo